My class has been presenting their Personality Psychology projects since the beginning of this month, and I thought that a few of them were really interesting.

Birth Order and Personality: Does birth order reveal personality? (self-fulfilling prophecies & expectation?)

According to one group's findings: The oldest child is raised in a stricter setting with more responsibility and pressure. When the 2nd child is born, he/she feels "dethrowned" and is sensitive to power issues. He/she also tends to be a perfectionist and aims high for his/her career.

Well my oldest brother (35 yrs) didn't finish college, and he is the opposite of a perfectionist. He has a simple job delivering chips to stores. He is very laid-back and comfortable with this life style.  All he wants to do is get married, have another child, and settle down with them for the rest of his life.

The middle child is like the one who is more neglected. The oldest child and the youngest child take up most of the parent's attention. The middle child tends to be the peacemaker and is good at making negotiations. When he/she becomes an adult, he/she is more comfortable and secure with his/her career than the oldest child.

My 2nd oldest brother (33 yrs) didn't finish college either. But by the time I was born, he moved out of the house because he couldn't get along with our mom. Although he didn't aim high in the career world, he is extremely sensitive to power issues and absolutely hates being neglected or being told what to do. He is NOT a peacemaker but a troublemaker, even as an adult.  He is also not stable with job.  Often times he doesn't have one, and he's living off my grandma's money and his wife's money.

The youngest child is spoiled and pampered. He/she feels a sense of entitlement and is good at manipulating others to get what he/she wants. He/she doesn't aim high due to this entitlement issue, like anything could be handed to him/her at anytime, so he/she doesn't seek to become a doctor or a lawyer. The youngest child tends to be more creative, self-confident, and goes into art/design or very simple careers.

As for myself (20 yrs), I am the youngest. I was certainly spoiled and pampered growing up, even more so by my oldest brother. But I wasn't very manipulative. I was typically well-behaved. Even though I am the baby of the family, I have to say there's much more pressure on ME to be very very successful instead of on my oldest brothers. It's like, if I get a C in one of my classes while I'm at my university, I'm doomed if they find out. They expect me to eventually take doctorate level courses. And also, I am not all that self-confident. I have high anxiety issues, and I'm weak on social skills. I admit I am creative though, but my major has nothing to do with drawing fantasy art or writing fiction stories.

So my brothers and I don't really correlate with the birth order and personality findings. There were a lot of things not taken into consideration, such as age differences between siblings, twin studies, gender, number of siblings, nature vs nurture debate, etc. So what about you guys?

Music and Personality:  Does a person's taste in music reveal a person's personality?

And again, according to one group's finding....

Blues/Jazz---> Creative, Outgoing, High Self-esteem, Gentle

Hip Hop/Rap, Electronica/Dance---> Troublemaker, Violent, Outgoing, Liberal, High Self-esteem, Race-orientated

Country music & Upbeat music---> Happy, Family-orientated, Outgoing, Conservative

Pop music---> Outgoing, Silly, Dumb

Heavy Metal/Rock---> Rebellious, Wild, Outgoing, Extroverted, Liberal, Depressed

Classical---> Sophisticated, Intelligent, Gentle


The group that presented this actually grouped Electronica/Dance with Hip Hop/Rap.  I like Electronica, but I'm certainly not violent, outgoing...well none of the things listed there.  I think Electronica should have its own set of personality stereotypes... The first thing I think of when I imagine a guy who likes Techno, for example, is a nerdy geeky guy who's intelligent with computers. =P But I know that's not the case because I have a lot of guy friends who like that and aren't that way at all.  Anyway, I don't like the fact that Electronica was paired with Rap in this study...

Most people in the class said that they enjoy ALL types of music, and they don't really fit into any of these categories or personality types.  Annnd I guess that's all I have to say for now! xD

I felt peace when I woke up this morning, oddly enough. I thought the reality of Obama's victory would hit me like a truck, and then I would go to college feeling irritated and depressed. But I'm at college right now and feeling pretty good. I feel like something heavy has been lifted off of my shoulders. Sure, 1 out of every 3 students are chanting Obama, and my professors join in on the fun, plus there's a huge party for Obama outside the library. But I feel so much relief that the election is just OVER!

I'm currently listening to Rush Limbaugh, and he made me feel so much better. He's feeling great about all this. To be honest, McCain wasn't my top pick when the primaries began, and neither was he for Rush. I didn't think that he was conservative enough, but I warmed up to him after he picked Sarah Palin to run by his side. I am proud of him, but if I could have had my pick, it would be Mitt Romney or Fred Thompson. But McCain still did a fine job. McCain won this election on honor and love for the American country, while Obama won on style and promises that most likely won't be fulfilled.

I now believe that Barack Obama's win serves an important purpose here. It's going to strengthen the Republican party because the level of opposition towards Obama will rise. Republicans will grow stronger, reorganize, touch back up on core conservative values, and prepare a nominee to win the election in 2012.

Well, I'm going to go do my homework in peace. =) For now.

I am proud of John McCain and Sarah Palin for running an honest campaign on the right values and beliefs. If McCain won by the way Obama ran his campaign, I would have been disappointed in the Republican party instead. So, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. This gives the Republican party a chance to re-organize and choose an even stronger nominee in 2012. Personally, I would love to see Romney/Palin next time. The pendulum will swing to the conservative side once again when America sees that Obama's liberal and socialist policies will not work.

It's been a tough day though, if you can imagine. It's been a long day. I woke up in the morning feeling as hopeful as I could be. Finally the end of the day came. When it was evident that McCain was losing halfway through the electoral vote count, I started crying. I felt angry that someone like Obama could win the presidency when his birth records were hidden (is he even legal to run?), when Mickey Mouse and the rest of his non-existent supporters voted for him through Acorn, and when his terrorist friends were probably celebrating him. I can not bring myself to respect Obama, but I will have to accept what is now and be patient. I just hope he won't damage the country too badly before Republicans can take the white house again. I think I can keep my sanity if he doesn't pass the fairness doctrine to ban conservative talk radio.

I hope I can go to school tomorrow feeling relieved that this is over, and strong because McCain and Palin won in my heart. At least I can get a free piece of cake at the Obama parties. Heck, lots of stuff will be free now that Obama's president! Hurray for free health care and redistribution of wealth---I get to take hard-earned money from the wealthy! Maybe I won't have to work and I can just depend on the government to take care of me from now on...................not! ^_^ Palin or Romney 2012!

Peace out

~Mimi

After I posted my first dream around 3:00am, I went back to sleep and had yet ANOTHER dream. This one is a lot weirder too. So don't strain yourself trying to make ANY sense of it. =P

My dream started out when I made a new best friend who had a real talent for gymnastics. And she was very famous in New York where we lived. She loved doing what she was doing. One day after we parted ways at school, I went to the grocery store and saw Will Smith. He wasn't an actor but a normal person in my dream. He saw me and asked if I could do him a favor, which was to help him carry stuff to his house.

So I went to his house and I met his family. Will had a cute little kid brother. The first part of the dream focused on how attached his little kid brother got to me. Like he had this action figure (like Hulk or something) and I would make a weird voice, pretending that the action figure could talk, and he loved it so much. I was sorta acting like a...and I really don't know how to spell this, but a venquilatrist. The kid actually thought that I made his action figure literally come alive whenever I was around it.

I made frequent visits after that and became the boy's babysitter since Will was often busy, and his parents worked all the time. And when I wasn't doing that, I would be in school. One day in school after my best friend had a great performance in gym, she started to act strange. She met up with this other girl, who seemed really snobbish, and they acted as if they were best friends. I tried to talk to her and they both avoided me. I was like "WHAT?"

Then something else unexpected happened. Will got in some kind of accident (like a car accident) and gained two powers. One power was that he would fade invisible in and out (uncontrollably), and he could see parts of the future simultaneously with the present. I ended up meeting him somewhere in town again, on the rooftop of a building, and strangely, I could see him when he was supposed to be invisible. He was like, "You can SEE me?" I also believed he had the power to see the future because I inherited that power from him...but only when I was near him. If I was a distance away, I couldn't use his power at all. I was the only one who could gain his powers when I was close to him. I suppose you could say that was MY power to absorb other's powers.

So one thing we both saw in the future was this building that had a huge sign on it, saying that my best friend was murdered. Then when I took a few steps away from Will, I didn't see it on the building anymore because it hadn't happened yet, but Will constantly saw it. Will couldn't turn off his power, so he always saw the future and the present mixed together, including people's positions and things like that. It was confusing for him.

So the two of us sat on the roof top for a while. Will wanted to prevent my friend from being murdered, and I recalled that she acted weird the other day with this new girl. I wondered if that had anything to do with what was going to happen, although it was a stretch. Then Will turned around and noticed a guy walking down the alley with a gun. Will told me to back up so I couldn't use his power, and he asked me, "Can you see him?" I said that I couldn't, so that was a scene from the future.

Just when we were going to follow him, some other people with guns came out and they were there in the present, not the future. Will was visible and couldn't figure out how to go invisible, since he couldn't control it yet, so he took out his gun and started fighting with them. I followed and hid around a corner, then I saw this guy with a flamethrower (huge gun that shoots fire). When he let his guard down, I ran up to him and somehow kicked that huge flamethrower out of his arms. Then I used it to fry him up.

Then everything got quiet, and I walked around the corner to find Will. We bumped into each other and aimed our weapons, then he realized it was me and we lowered our weapons. He gave me this look and asked, "What are you DOING? This is too dangerous for you," And I told him I wanted to help and that I could handle it. Besides, he would need my help in determining what was in the present and future.

So Will decided to go to the mall because he figured out that the people with guns had their headquarters inside there. It was like in some secret room. So I followed him from a distance. He became invisible (I could somehow see him and know that), and I wasn't, so I had to keep hiding around as I followed. Then when I caught up to him, we saw a ton of more guys with guns walking around the mall, and Will asked me if they were really here. I told him that they were and asked if I should shoot them, but he smiled and said he could take care of it. So he attacked them and they had nooo chance against an invisible man.

Then I woke up.. We didn't get to rescue my friend. I never see my dreams to the end. T_T!

Well, I want to start writing down all the dreams I get. I think I wrote about 4 of them so far, and they usually make no sense at all. And so does this one..

There was this boy living in my neighborhood who came from France. He spoke English very well, and we did stuff together all the time. Then one early, bright morning I got in an argument with my mom, and I went outside on the back porch. (still in my night wear) And I saw the boy in my yard on a bicycle, and he just stayed there seeming to be waiting for me. So I raised my finger letting him know to wait, and I went back inside the house to get dressed properly.

And I found something awesome to wear that I don't actually own. In RL I usually wear a huge t-shirt and pants everyday, but in the dream I had this awesome purple dress with some kind of short jacket that went with it. It sparkled and everything and looked expensive. I got it for free from some company that my mom didn't like, so it had the company's name written on the back. Can't really say what that was about though. xD

Anyway, as I was getting dressed, I was concerned about not taking a shower first b/c I usually do that every morning before getting dressed, but I felt the need to hurry for some reason. Then I left a note on the table for my mom as if I knew I was going to go far away, and I left the house to be united with the boy.

I followed him to his unit, and I saw his dad dressed in a tuxedo getting in this car with a few of the boy's relatives. I was wondering what was going on. The boy said that his dad was going to travel back to France to get married to his soon-to-be step-mom who was American. She was also fluent in speaking French. The boy said he was going too and asked if I wanted to come, and I said "OK!"

So the next thing I knew, I was getting on the plane with them. This is weird because everyone spoke English on the plane, and as soon as we were approaching France, everyone spoke French as if they lost their ability to speak English. And I was lost because I sure didn't know any French. We got off the plane, and we were like in Paris or something. I was just fascinated to finally visit another country.

One of the first things we actually did was go to the movie theater. I just went with the boy alone, but for some reason when I sat down next to him, he would get up and move somewhere else. He was just playing around. So when I sat down next to him probably the 4th or 5th time, I took out a handcuff and attached it to my wrist as well as his so he couldn't escape. Then the movie started, and I couldn't understand a thing that was happening.

Then during the middle, I suddenly noticed the boy had gotten free somehow and wasn't sitting next to me anymore. He actually just went to the bathroom, but he never returned after that. The movie ended and I tried to find the boy everywhere I could.

Then the dream fastforwards to 2 or 3 years in the future, and the boy was trying to find ME. He felt so much regret for leaving me during the theater. I don't know if it was the world record's longest bathroom break ever or if it was a joke....he just felt bad. I never made it back to his parents or anything, so it was as if I disappeared after that day. So he spent like twice a week going to the theater as if expecting to find me somewhere around there. Even after all those years.

Unfortunately the dream didn't continue long enough where I could find out where I was. Maybe I found my way back home. =P I hope I did.

So did everyone enjoy their Fall break?! Did you even have it yet..? xD Well, mine came and went fast. I started my break on the day I went to the republican rally, and ever since then, I watched a lot of anime over the break. Such anime include:

Hakushaku to Yousei


Tytania


Legend of the Galactic Heroes Gaiden


Bonen no Xamdou


Ashita No Nadja


Mijuu Mensou no Musume


Mouryou no Hako


What I didn't do was any homework. Just zip, nadda. I don't know why I always set myself up like this, but I'll have to cram this week to complete assignments. I have an Indian Lit paper rough draft to start today and work on every second that I'm awake..after I post this entry.. -sigh- And a couple other papers to get started on. I already can't wait until the weekend because I want to go to the fair~!!!! :3 Yippe!

Btw, has anyone seen "Eagle's Eye" in theaters yet? When I called my brother, he told me it was so awesome and that I needed to see it. But then I found out Shia LaBeouf was in it, and he will always be the silly "Even Stevens" guy to me. So when he appeared in Transformers and Indiana Jones, I just couldn't get the "feel" of his role. I'm tired of seeing him in everything, but...if this movie is really good, I'll consider seeing it. Besides, I get an excuse to eat popcorn and pizza together if I go to the movies! ^.^

Well, today started out as normal as any other day. Sort of! I just started Fall break, so instead of getting up at 6am, I had the luxury of sleeping in. When it hit about 11am or so, and I still didn't get out of bed, my mom came in my room and asked me if I wanted to see Sarah Palin at a rally located at Elon College. I was like, "Are you serious?" And thankfully she was. She already got the last-minute tickets, so I jumped in the shower to get ready!

It was an hour-long drive. When we got closer and closer to our destination, I noticed a lot of cars with the "McCain & Palin" bumper stickers. That's so rare to see in the city I live in. I felt like I was slowly entering another world or something, especially when we got to the republican rally. Just a very unique moment for me. The rally was in a baseball stadium near the college, and it was FILLED UP! It was so crowded that I felt like I was at the state fair! Later, I learned that there were several thousand people there.

It was also extremely hot outside. We got there 3 hours early, so we waited in the shade. And some very very nice, warm-hearted Palin fans came to talk to us. Everyone I came in contact with were very warm-hearted and high-spirited. They also have so many interesting backgrounds! For example, one of them taught in a military school in Japan, and another guy is the father of Ronald Regan's speech writer. Random but awesome.

The heat was eventually starting to get to us, but we stayed in the shade as long as we could until Sarah Palin came out. I felt like I was going to cry when I saw her. I tried to get a good look at her from where I stood on the hill, and it took a while to find a good spot. I know I was there 3 hours in advance, but I couldn't reserve a good spot when it was THAT hot outside. Then during the middle of Palin's speech, a random young guy started protesting in the crowd. He said something like, "No f*** no!" and he was removed. The police carried him right past me, and everyone shouted "USA!" repeatedly. My hears hurt after that. =P But the tears welled up in my eyes again.

Anyway, this was the FIRST rally I ever went to, so that's why I'm so excited. Sarah Palin is also the first famous person I ever saw so close. Soon, John McCain is going to have a speech not too far away, but I don't know if I'm going to go to it. I was more motivated to see Palin.

What an awesome day!! =)

Well the other day, I was going to the park with my parents because they were going to play tennis in the tennis courts...against strangers who played pretty well. When I sorta wanted to play or try it out, I was just kind of in the way, and they told me to either watch or go do something else. Since I had my college books and laptop with me, I walked across the street to a building where I could work on my assignments. It was some kind of business building but there was a nice lobby when you walked in..plenty of tables and comfortable chairs!

But unfortunately it was really crowded in there. I would have worked outside but I just wanted to be in an air-conditioned building. So I thought that I would explore around and find somewhere else to sit. There were probably empty rooms upstairs that I could occupy for myself. So I took the elevator upstairs and did find a random room. It was a small blue room, and the chairs were small, but I just wanted to sit down with the laptop on my lap. It was quiet as if there were no people on the floor at all.

Then as I began working, I eventually heard some people shuffling around in the hallway and the entered the room I was in. They were a group of old and young people with physical and mental disabilities. There were a few in wheel chairs, including a younger boy around 10 years old. For some reason some of them had pillows in their arms as if they just came out of bed. Some of them acted and talked a little strange, but I knew better, so I got out the way for them to come in since I was sitting near the door.

I didn't see an authoritative person come in. It was just those people with disabilities, blocking the entire way to get out. Some of them just stopped in the doorway. Since the room was small, I wondered if it was a good thing for them to be in there. Anyway, I couldn't get out, so I just packed my laptop up and stared around at them. Then an old man randomly asked me, "How can you sit in that?" I didn't really know how to respond to that.. The chair was small, yeah, but it wasn't that uncomfortable. I replied, "I just can..and it spins." I spun around in the chair a couple times.

Then a couple people who looked more normal sat on the chairs and just copied me. They were spinning around and laughing. And one person who had a pillow just randomly threw it at somebody else. Then a pillow fight started. I even participated; it was fun. Well, we actually just threw the pillows around like playing "catch." After a while I forgot about asking what they were doing here or where their caretaker was.

Then suddenly the 10-year old looking boy started crying because his pillow was snatched. He seemed really upset.. Someone gave it back to him but he shoved it away complaining about it. I went up to him trying to console him, saying stuff like "Oh it's just a pillow, it's okay. See, you can have it back." And one of the other people said it was their fault for starting the pillow fight.

Then I heard a woman's voice from the hallway calling the people to come out. I guess they came to the wrong room afterall. They began to exit the room. But oddly in that short period of time, we all felt somewhat connected as if friends. I actually missed them. A few of them hugged me and kept looking back to smile at me as they exited. And some of the others, who weren't quite aware of their surroundings as that and probably didn't know what was going on when the pillow thing started, just left. Then I was all alone again, and I heard the woman outside instruct them on what to do.

Then I woke up! What an interesting dream. xDDDD

Well, I'm sitting in the library at my university now. Due to my short-term memory and my laziness to read my previous entries, I don't remember if I talked about my midterms coming up. But I have one for Geography and Psych this week! Starting tomorrow! Plus an assignment on the side. So I'll be so busy with that until Thursday when it's all over. When the weekend comes again, I can finally enjoy watching anime on my HDTV without guilt! =P

So, I never really got to tell about my experience at my university. It's a big place. Most of my teachers are young, enthusiastic graduate students. It's a major change from having teachers over 40 years old, married with kids. There are eating places everywhere, and I usually eat my breakfast and lunch here everyday. The kids are nice and studious. There's an Anime club. Hmm! ...Well, that was short.. xD

So what else have I been up to recently..? Well..this year in particular, I have really gotten into politics. I'm always thinking about it; Who's going to be the next president of the United States? The first black president or a war hero? This is my FIRST year voting, so I've paid very close attention to the debates. I'm a Conservative, and it's stressful sometimes..because at my university, it's very liberal and I feel "closed-in" and can't share my opinions with anyone without getting attacked hard. But really, it has been a VERY interesting election!! I listen to Rush Limbaugh, Sean Hannity, and Mark Levine almost everyday. I watch Fox News, sometimes CNN..almost everyday. If there's one thing about me that has changed in the past 2 years, it's my focus on the news and politics. By the way, if you happen to be Conservative and reading this, contact me? I don't have ANY friends who share my political view point. =( It's sad. -sniff-

Well, here's the beginning of another day! I guess I'll keep uploading my videos to Dailymotion, even though some videos won't get through. On another note, I am swamped with homework this weekend. I have two midterms next week for Psych statistics and Geography. Today I swore that I would read my books 12 hours straight..but is that realistic for me? =P Probably not.

I really wanted to spend my weekend watching anime on my new TV that I got for my birthday. It's a 22inch flatscreen (what do other people call it?) and it has been mounted on my wall. I have one laptop hooked up to it so I can watch anime on it, and my other laptop (which I'm using now) is on my desk. But I could hardly do what I wanted with it since I've been studying this weekend. I just can't wait till Fall break next week!! ^^

Oki I better go back to studying now~! -rushes-

Sorry I haven't updated my journal in a while.. But honestly I can't say much has happened after I graduated with my Associates Degree. After the Anime con, my summer consisted of watching anime and playing Mario Kart Wii obsessively..(I'm such a kid) Then school came so quickly, and I started my third year at my University. I thought for SURE I would upload some new mixes to Youtube during the summer, as the demand was getting high for a new Hardcore Techno Randomness video. But I didn't make any new ones. And now I reallllly wish that I did.

My youtube account was suspended on Sept 30 2008. I knew it was going to happen eventually..it was happening to everyone else. But almost right after, I noticed videos on Youtube dedicated to me. Even today some more were posted up, and I read the comments and everything. I'm very touched. I'm almost spoken of as if I died in real life. But nope I'm still around, if any of you are reading this! I just regret not making any summer videos. Especially since Dark (Demonicrealm) and Devotee were gone before me; I didn't use my youtube account to its fullest in the last few months that I had it. But I did have a great time on Youtube..just a fantastic time! It's one of my favorite experiences on the internet.

Now looking towards the future.. I'm trying to find a new home for my mixes. I tried Dailymotion.com and it didn't work out. Only a few of my videos were uploaded while 2 were rejected, and if I attempt to upload all, there will surly be more rejected videos. So I only have one lead right now. Someone emailed me saying he could make me a video streaming website so my vids won't get deleted. I love the idea. We'll just have to wait around and see how it goes though.

By the way, my birthday was yesterday! I finally turned 20 years old. *sniff* Here comes a new mountain load of responsibilities! -runs!-

~Mimi